To say that we are busy is definitely an understatement - I barely spend any time at home between the two jobs and church seems as if I am only here to shower and sleep and make the list of things to do for the next day!
Levi is teaching me new things each day and I hate to say it but it was brought about because I know that my days with him are very limited. The past few mornings I have made it a point to snuggle with him and Lil Ben and Annabelle - play ball with him - check on him several times during the night...I now seem to be paying close attention to where he is at all times. Drinking it all in like an addict - loving him unconditionally similar to the way he loves us.
His poor little body is failing him and yet all he wants to do is please us, love us and enjoy us....WOW - I cant say the same thing about me when I feel terrible all I want is to feel better - forget about others just make me feel better.
A true picture of love - one of the few pictures here on earth that we see of unconditional love - I pray that you have found that kind of love with our Lord - He died for us - He knows the number of hairs on our head - He knew us when we were still in the womb - He loves us unconditional - He is faithful to forgive us and His grace and mercy is beyond measure and He blessed me with Levi - a little dog that has taught a busy middle aged woman how to appreciate the little things again!
Thank You Lord for blessing me with Levi and for the lessons I am learning from my time with him.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Let's play ball....
I am not a sports person - cant believe I said that outloud after all my husband is a high school coach. He loves football, basketball, baseball, hockey, racing...you name it...He is 100% sports fanatic. I am terribly uncoordinated - no rhythm - the one that was always picked last at recess..you get the picture. I watch sports with Coach Burns - go to all the games but know very little about it- I support his teams (with the exception of his favorite college team). But given the choice to watch sport or a good movie - give me the movie anyday!
I am not a morning person at all! I am grumpy and unsociable - irritable and hurried - always lacking sleep. Coach Burns has learned to not talk much of a morning for I have the tendency to snap at comments that normally would only get a chuckle. For years I have tried to wake up nice but most days it just takes too much effort!
However things may be changing - imagine that! You see there is a little bulldog named Levi that loves to play ball - loves loves loves to play ball! I have never seen anything like it! He has lots of balls but one favorite - a squeaky baseball - carries it with him throughout the house and into the yard. Always know where to find it when you ask him where it is...
Thank you Lord for blessing me today! Now let's play ball!!!
Today for the first time EVER of a morning - I found myself playing ball with Levi before leaving for work and I enjoyed it! I don't know how many more mornings he will feel like playing ball but I pray that this continues and I stop and take a few extra moments to play with him - it sure made me smile and I believe he was smiling also!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Levi and Sub Q fluids
Until this episode with Levi - I had never even heard of Sub Q fluids - now it is part of our life....right now every third day for three weeks and then every other day indefinitely ....Can I say - Oh my? I am used to the cleaning of the wrinkles, the wiping of the bottoms, the endless cleaning of the ears and eyes....I have gotten that down to a science but now this....Again Oh my!
For those of you who are wondering what I am talking about - here is a how to link of what we know have to do with Levi ... http://www.thirdstreetvet.com/nss-folder/cehandoutfiles/Subcutaneous%20Fluid%20Administration.htm
So last night - we got the fluids out and cleared the line - put on the needle - found us a spot on the rear to begin - He was excited and knew something was going to happen so we gave him his ball to chew on....Of course Coach Burns got to hold him and I got to do the dirty work - stick him with the needle and open the flow.....bless his little heart - he took it like a true trooper!
We sat there with him for what seems like a much longer time than actually was while the fluids proceeded to cause a bubble under his skin - about the size of your palm....once we have reached the designated amount - I pulled the needle out and pinched slightly to keep the fluids inside.
It look funny on his body but the doctors told us it would absorb quickly and it did...Levi handled it much better than we did - practice will make perfect so we should get pretty good at this in the next few weeks! Praying that the Sub Q fluids will give his kidneys some relief and that he will continue to feel better!
We know that unless something miraculous changes - our days are numbered with him even though he is so young. We have accepted that - we will do the doctoring and the cleaning, and preparing special food and whatever else is required of us to keep him comfortable because we love him - Like parents love their children, like families love each other...HE IS FAMILY! Thank you God for blessing us with our little ball boy!
For those of you who are wondering what I am talking about - here is a how to link of what we know have to do with Levi ... http://www.thirdstreetvet.com/nss-folder/cehandoutfiles/Subcutaneous%20Fluid%20Administration.htm
So last night - we got the fluids out and cleared the line - put on the needle - found us a spot on the rear to begin - He was excited and knew something was going to happen so we gave him his ball to chew on....Of course Coach Burns got to hold him and I got to do the dirty work - stick him with the needle and open the flow.....bless his little heart - he took it like a true trooper!
We sat there with him for what seems like a much longer time than actually was while the fluids proceeded to cause a bubble under his skin - about the size of your palm....once we have reached the designated amount - I pulled the needle out and pinched slightly to keep the fluids inside.
It look funny on his body but the doctors told us it would absorb quickly and it did...Levi handled it much better than we did - practice will make perfect so we should get pretty good at this in the next few weeks! Praying that the Sub Q fluids will give his kidneys some relief and that he will continue to feel better!
We know that unless something miraculous changes - our days are numbered with him even though he is so young. We have accepted that - we will do the doctoring and the cleaning, and preparing special food and whatever else is required of us to keep him comfortable because we love him - Like parents love their children, like families love each other...HE IS FAMILY! Thank you God for blessing us with our little ball boy!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Well with my soul.....
It is Sunday night about 10:00 pm and my house is so very quiet....Coach Burns is sleeping, Annabelle is sleeping, Lil Ben is sleeping and Levi is too....Quiet times like these are very scarce in our house! As I sit here typing, I hear the washing machine churning away with one of the multiple loads of the day...all is well at least for the moment.
Today we sang - "It Is Well With My Soul", a hymn that was written by a man in total despair over losing his family at sea - yet he found a peace to say it is well with my soul. Today on GFBC program - Bro. Kevin Hamm spoke of Job and all that he went through - none of which he brought on himself - yet he worshipped anyway.
To quote Beth Moore - sometimes you gotta praise first and feel it later! I have been there and done that. I have praised through the good times and the bad...I will continue to do so...One day - I pray that I will be able to say "it is well with my soul" while still on this earth...I am still a work in progress with a LONG way to go!
Tonight we sang my favorite song ever - What a day that will be
The words go like this:
There is coming a day,
When no heart aches shall come,
No more clouds in the sky,
No more tears to dim the eye,
All is peace forever more,
On that happy golden shore,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day that will be,
When my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand,
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
There'll be no sorrow there,
No more burdens to bear,
No more sickness, no pain,
No more parting over there;
And forever I will be,
With the One who died for me,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day that will be,
When my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand,
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be
Until He comes or takes me home, I pray this life down here can be well with my soul.
Today we sang - "It Is Well With My Soul", a hymn that was written by a man in total despair over losing his family at sea - yet he found a peace to say it is well with my soul. Today on GFBC program - Bro. Kevin Hamm spoke of Job and all that he went through - none of which he brought on himself - yet he worshipped anyway.
To quote Beth Moore - sometimes you gotta praise first and feel it later! I have been there and done that. I have praised through the good times and the bad...I will continue to do so...One day - I pray that I will be able to say "it is well with my soul" while still on this earth...I am still a work in progress with a LONG way to go!
Tonight we sang my favorite song ever - What a day that will be
The words go like this:
There is coming a day,
When no heart aches shall come,
No more clouds in the sky,
No more tears to dim the eye,
All is peace forever more,
On that happy golden shore,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day that will be,
When my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand,
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
There'll be no sorrow there,
No more burdens to bear,
No more sickness, no pain,
No more parting over there;
And forever I will be,
With the One who died for me,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day that will be,
When my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand,
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be
Until He comes or takes me home, I pray this life down here can be well with my soul.
Friday, February 3, 2012
Levi and Listmaker Laurel
Yesterday Lil Ben had a complete bloodwork up because he was feeling bad - for those of you that don't know - Lil Ben is a full brother to Levi just a year and 1/2 older... Lil Ben is fine! Other than a little dehydration from a upset stomach - he is home and sleeping in his favorite chair as I type!
Levi got fluids tonight at the vets - Coach Burns and I were instructed on how to do this at home....hopefully we will be able to do it without much trouble. This leads us to our new life of meds and special diets and care!
In case you don't know, bulldogs are pretty high maintenance dogs to begin with - they need their wrinkles cleaned daily, theirs ears cleaned, their butts wiped, their eyes and noses care for.....we have a routine for this and they actually don't mind it at all...well except for Annabelle (she usually tries to sneak off)
Now we have to prepare special food for Levi - give meds every morning and every evening - some he likes - some he does not at all especially the liquid that taste like chalky mint...he fights when we have to give him this twice a day...
Now fluids - three times a week to start for three weeks - it will take both Coach Burns and I to do this - can we say quality time with a smile???
So how do we fit all of this into our busy schedule and not forget anything?? Well never fear Listmaker Laurel is here! I have already sat down tonight and marked up the calendar for the next month -making sure that Mr. Levi has all that he needs and we don't plan anything to conflict with his meds!
I knew one day that my obsession for list making would come in handy - now I know why! To everything there is a season.....praying for the next season in Levi's life to be as happy as possible!
Coming soon - Levi's Bucket List with the help of Listmaker Laurel.....laughing laughing laughing!
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Darling...are you sure we are in St. Lucia?
Coach Burns and I have been planning a trip for our 10th anniversary for a while now...St Lucia - beautiful tropical island, sun, sand, water, gardens, food, relaxing, sleeping in, adventures - All inclusive - flying in from Atlanta.
We have spent countless hours looking at the resorts and the packages - dreaming of a week without a care in the world! Oh, just the thought of it makes me smile! We spend so much time working and working and being sick that we have willed our minds to break away if just for a few days....then something unexpected happened....
Levi got sick...not just a little sick but a oh no kind of sick....Just within the past week - we have already spent 1/3 of that trip on his vets bills and that is just the beginning. Tomorrow we go to learn how to give fluids at home so we will need supplies for that. Levi is on special food that you must buy with a prescription and that is not cheap either...Meds, Meds and more meds...You get the picture....
So darling - close your eyes and we are in St. Lucia right here from the comfort of our own home! I will light the tiki torches on the deck and fill up the dog's pool with clear water! You put on some beach music and I will make a delish dinner... Just listen to the waves....peace and quiet and love abides...what a treasure we have found - St Lucia has bulldogs too!!! Who could ask for anything more?
Levi - Day 8 - Dr. Jeykl and Mr.Hyde
Oh my Levi Malachi!!! We have officially entered into a whole new world of pet care! From all outward appearances - Levi is still just the cutest little bulldog that he has always been - a little mischevious and crazy eyed but calm and well behaved most of the time.....ALL of this has changed since the hospital stay - he now has that wild eye look pretty much all of the time he is awake.
We believe that the combination of all the meds he is on coupled with the kidney failure progressing that the little fellow is just coping the best way he can. However, lashing out at Lil Ben is not the answer - neither Levi or Lil Ben need to be fighting and not to mention the human that gets in the way....Monday it was me - last night it was Coach Burns. Both of us are sporting punctures and bruises that look pretty ugly.
We have addressed this with our vets and Levi started doggie valium last night for his tremors/shakes and he is hoping that will take the edge off of Levi's anixety. Sure wish that Levi could talk and tell us what to do - wouldnt that be fabulous??
So now we battle this terrible disease and we battle to get our household back to the peace that it once had. Behavior modification/training/specialist is not the best option for a dog that is not feeling good.... We hate to keep him from the other dogs but we are prepared to do so if the meds cant control his new urge to attack.
Levi gets meds every morning and more meds at night - restricted diet - and Friday we will start fluids at home everyday. His sleep patterns are also off due to the tremors waking him up...
Quality of life?? He still loves his ball, loves to be petted, loves to eat, still climbing stairs to be where everyone else is, still our precious Levi - until in the blink of an eye he displays his disgust with the fact that he is dying and starts fighting like a dog literaly.
Isnt he a lot like us? When we have had enough - dont we do what is natural to us? Scream, cry, get angry, hurt someone with words - all because we are in pain and we are self-asborded at the moment....Then the smoke clears and we are sorry for what we have done....Levi Malachi - we love you! We are going to love you through this!
Thank you Lord for showing me the error of ways through a little bulldog's pain! Give me the strength to be example you would have me to be! Thank you for loving me despite the meanness that I spew out so often.
We believe that the combination of all the meds he is on coupled with the kidney failure progressing that the little fellow is just coping the best way he can. However, lashing out at Lil Ben is not the answer - neither Levi or Lil Ben need to be fighting and not to mention the human that gets in the way....Monday it was me - last night it was Coach Burns. Both of us are sporting punctures and bruises that look pretty ugly.
We have addressed this with our vets and Levi started doggie valium last night for his tremors/shakes and he is hoping that will take the edge off of Levi's anixety. Sure wish that Levi could talk and tell us what to do - wouldnt that be fabulous??
So now we battle this terrible disease and we battle to get our household back to the peace that it once had. Behavior modification/training/specialist is not the best option for a dog that is not feeling good.... We hate to keep him from the other dogs but we are prepared to do so if the meds cant control his new urge to attack.
Levi gets meds every morning and more meds at night - restricted diet - and Friday we will start fluids at home everyday. His sleep patterns are also off due to the tremors waking him up...
Quality of life?? He still loves his ball, loves to be petted, loves to eat, still climbing stairs to be where everyone else is, still our precious Levi - until in the blink of an eye he displays his disgust with the fact that he is dying and starts fighting like a dog literaly.
Isnt he a lot like us? When we have had enough - dont we do what is natural to us? Scream, cry, get angry, hurt someone with words - all because we are in pain and we are self-asborded at the moment....Then the smoke clears and we are sorry for what we have done....Levi Malachi - we love you! We are going to love you through this!
Thank you Lord for showing me the error of ways through a little bulldog's pain! Give me the strength to be example you would have me to be! Thank you for loving me despite the meanness that I spew out so often.
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